Hunting for Golf Balls by Tom Velterop – Part IV
There is a cold marrow in my bones,
of clean river clay
ice water
wild grass and the sap of a silver pine.
It comes from the copse
where we walked,
me and you
then me,
alone.
We wandered then I wandered,
and wondered,
you with the sky in your eyes
(and the late sunlight)
and me, lost to the loam and the gloam
my head in the clouds
my eyes in the ground.
We searched then I searched,
and searched,
though the search didn’t matter
(or did it matter to you?)
only the searching of it,
together.
And I know now,
Father,
that though death has us parted
(and winter has only now started)
I will keep you close by me
in my smile,
in my cowlick,
in my big toes,
in everything you left me,
and I won’t forget
(but I will forgive)
and live
and continue to love
knowing that you will guide me.
Love,
(and other things)
Your son.
by Tom Velterop
About Hunting for Golf Balls
Hunting for Golf Balls is a four-part memoir about loss, and the last refuge of wilderness. It began with not knowing how to begin, and never really ended. The first installment was published last week and you can read it here. You can find the first installment, the second installment and the third installment here.